3.25.2009
AHHHHHHHH!!!!
I dont know how to have a group discussion in Mandarin! Well done, Yi Ting. Your English sucks and now your mother tongue sucks too! Ha.
So the story goes. My group mates for Media Industries 1 are all Chinese. 2 Chinese and 1 Hong Konger. So by default, the spoken language is Mandarin. But I've never done a group discussion in Mandarin before!!! I dont know how to express my thoughts in Mandarin... Seriously, I'm such a failure cos I've been speaking Mandarin at home all my life but when it comes to serious work, words just don't appear! You know how it feels when you're eager to tell someone something but you can't find the exact words for it? I guess I need a translator. This feeling in terrible. For my fellow friends out there, you know how sometimes there's no 100% translation? ZZZZzzzz
I'm angry and helpless at the same time. When I do speak to them in Mandarin, I'll always wonder what do they think? 'Is she trying to act as if her English is better than us?' Well, NO! My English isn't any better. Grammar mistakes everywhere, wrong sentence structures, limited vocabs. What else man?
Sigh. We've sort of finished the first assignment. The funny thing is, I didnt complete a section in the assignment before letting them to look through. Ahem, not to say thing, but they didn't even notice that and said that it's okay..... BAH!!! Well, I guess I've got lots of stuff to edit this time.
IRONICALLY.
This is totally opposite with my PP group. They're fluent in English, vocal and talk as if they're debating. Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating a bit here. Heh. Yea, so one is from NYC, another from Chicago and the last is local. A bunch of angmohs. This time round I am the quiet one who contributes occassionally because everyone is talking. Maybe I just need more time to understand what they're saying.
They'll always ask me if I understand what they're talking and if I like the project idea. The worst part is when they ask me to brainstorm stuff. This I have to raise both of my hands up and agree that that's my weakness. I can't brainstorm. Well, not that I can't. I always try but somehow or rather nothing comes to my mind. I am always amazed by people who can think of ideas right away, like in a blink of an eye 3 ideas are out. I simply can't do that! Sigh.
So yea. I'm kinda stressed out now cos I need to speak Mandarin for one English project and I need to speak more for another English project.
I am horrible.
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