10.23.2008
My grandma is back in the hospital again.
sigh~
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10.20.2008
The last post was a month ago. My life is still mundane, not much of an excitement over here. To all those friends who are concern over my msn nick- m.i.n
cried. Yes, she did. Her granny has been going in and out of TTSH for the whole month. There were times whereby she'll just leave like that. She's already 90. That's enough I guess. I wouldn't want to live till that old either. Each time I see her lying on the bed. The yet-so-familiar disinfect smell. I hate going to the hospital. Who likes it?
She propped up her foot on the pillow that was comfortably tucked below her legs. She didn't open her eyes when we called her. All she did was scratching her arms occassionally. Throughout the 10 visits I made, she didn't open her eyes during 8 of the visits. Maybe she's too tired. Even if she did, her eyes would just fix on the empty wall. Did she hear us? Did she see us? What was she thinking? There were numerous question marks in our minds. But no one could give us the answer.
Her doctor told us that my granny had lung infection. Some where in her was oozing out blood. And to cure that we could give her a jab. But that jab might cause other side effects and implications. Tough decision. Majority voted not to give that jab. No jab was given. Her heart left with 35% functioning. Sigh. What to do? She's old.
Now, my granny is out of the hospital, back at her care centre. A part of me is secretly hoping that she'll recover. But that's impossible isn't it? A part of me wants her to leave peacefully. Sigh~
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